Assalamualaikum...
Alhamdulillah syukur sgt pada Allah s.w.t yg tak pernah gagal memberikan petunjuk tatkala hmba Nya memerlukan... as I said, nobody knows me better than HIM...
Semalam ain tak blh tido... my heart is aching for something... i dont know what's the time... sejak nset tak dak ni, laptop ja tmpat ain tgk waktu... jd kalo laptop tutup, i have no timer anymore... realizing what a person next to me is doing made me feel so bad... rasa sakit hati, marah, etc... salah satu penyakit hati... kedekut! not good right.. ain pn terus bangun, amik wudhuk, masuk bilik smyg, then recite the Quran... semalam ain dh smpai dekat surah Al-Furqan... sebelum tutup kitab suci tu, ain tergerak hati utk baca tafsiran surah tu di bhgn2 akhir surah.. mybe i could get some guidance utk masalah hati yg ain tgh struggle skrg... and indeed, "surat cinta" dari Allah tak penah gagal membantu ain mencari sebuah jawapan bila ain sgt memerlukan... tnpa disedari, air mata teralir keluar tatkala membaca ayat2 tu... i felt much better now... thnx ya Allah...
segala masalah yg terawang-awang dlm kepala ain dh terjwb... regarding my fault to Allah, dealing with them whom do things oppositing the hukum Allah... i guess i should be honest with my feeling... just tell them yg ain tak suka dgr certain2 things coz ain mmg tak mmpu nk tunjukkan interest... no buat bodo ja bila org bercerita ngn kita, terlalu kejam tindakan ain rasa... unless gtau ja yg ain tak nak dgr... its better for me not knowing than hearing, but cannot do anything utk menegur... lemah nya terasa iman di dada... ya Allah... help me along the way plz... amiin..
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