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Tuesday, May 04, 2010

My promise!

Few days ago, ain attend wedding feast one of my coursemate.. alhamdulillah diberi kesempatan utk menghadirkan diri walau pun pada awalnya ain agak reluctant utk pegi... tp mengingatkan yg menghubungkan silah tu adalah tuntutan agama, last minute ain decide utk ikut sekali ke sana...


On the way back dari sana, ain dapat soalan best punya... tak lain tak bukan pasal walimah ain plk la kan... hehehe~ what everr... my boss said that i shud try to make fren more... utk meramaikan pilihan bakal suami la kot maksudnya... selepas sesi bersoal-jawab beberapa ketika... both of my superior diam with this sentence...

"Tak boleh... saya dh janji... saya mesti tunaikan.."

of course they were asking what promise i made... tp rasanya depa pn tau tak mgkin ain akn gtau nya... hehe~ jawapan ain senang ja...

"Adala...."

It was not just a sentence to make them shut... tp mmg ada janji yg dh dibuat dan mesti ditunaikan... the same janji yg ain selalu cerita...

seperti biasa, jalan menuju kebaikan pasti ada ujiannya... bukan ckit yg cuba menggugat pendirian ain pasal relationship ngn lelaki ni... sometimes they don't even know the reason why... but i know what i'm doing... i don't care bout others... i just care bout HIM...

some said that i have to socialize more... to act softer with guys... just try to make frens with guys whom wish to befriend with me... i might find the one for me soon...

what ever people said... i just wonder this one question...

"For what ??!"

ain cbuk cari skrg pn, bukannya blh nk nikah lagi... tu satu hal... keduanya, ain rasa tak perlu pn nk menjaja diri mcm tu... tu semua urusan Allah... yg plg penting niat ain buat semua ni... for me, i just need to be ready for any possibilities... kalau kawin alhamdulillah... kalau tak pn, terima ja la since that's the best for me in Allah's view...

ada org kata, ain dh besar utk dgr pasal "hal-hal" rumah tangga... i''m 24 already... ilmu wajib pn tak berapa nk cukup lagi... nk cita pasal "membuat" anak... bukannya ain tak tau lgsg hal2 gitu... cuma ain susah nk terima if people see marriage as a way utk membolehkan "menda alah" tu sahaja... nk tulis secara terang2, i'm lil bit shy... so phm2 sendiri ja la ya...

once upon a time, mmg rasa mcm best nya ada pasangan... for many reasons i felt that way... tp bila dh makin dewasa ni, btol kata org... rasa mcm dh malas nk pikir sgt menda2 gitu... in fact, i don't really mind bout the issue... mungkin atas keyakinan yg lgsg tak berbelah-bahagi that Allah will give me the best path to go through...

sometimes terasa mcm gembira dgn keasyikan cinta yg dikejar skrg ni... walaupun tak mencapai cinta hakiki sbb kelemahan diri sendiri, tp still cinta yg dh tumbuh dlm hati ni memberi perbezaan yg bukan sedikit pada jiwa yg ketandusan... i'm happy with my life now... i'll change if it is a necessity to be closer with HIM... other than that, no need to say anything... i won't accept...

inna solaati wa nusuki wa mahyaya wa mamati lillahi rabbil 'aalamiin...

i must keep my promise!! i'm confident Allah is helping me on that... :))



2 comments:

ayuku said...

xpe ain..do what u think is right. cinta Allah cinta yg hakiki. tentang cinta duniawi,jgn risau sgt ye ain. semoga happy selalu :)

p/s- lama kita x contact kn..

aiN maNiSa said...

thnx ayu... tak risau pn sgt pn... byk lagi hal lain yg nk kena tumpu... hehe~

emm, agak lama la jgk... ayu pn bz skrg kan.. :)
pa2 pn just keep in touch kay...

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